One thing about me, even though I have lived for over forty years essentially alone now, it is only when I think about it, the loneliness gets amplified noticeably. The emptiness is as vast as the ocean. You feel like you can have all the wealth in the world and nothing would save you from it. And I usually experience the related emotional roller-coaster when I think about someone I miss very much.
Thinking about the could have beens.
But of course, God has other plans.
And then it sends me into a spiral of depression.
I miss you. I wish you're here by my side. I can never stop thinking about you. Looking at the distant mountains relieves the feeling a bit, before it sends me off the deep end even further, because I keep imagining you're there waiting for me to come and yet I cannot reach you because I don't know where exactly you are.
There was a boy
A very strange enchanted boy
They say he wandered very far, very far
Over land and sea
A little shy
And sad of eyes
But very wise
Very wise was he
And then one day (And one day)
A magic day he passed my way
And while we spoke of many things (Many things)
Fools and kings (Fools and kings)
This he said to me
"The greatest thing you could ever learn
Is just to love and be loved in return"
- Central Line "Nature Boy"
